Self-harm fever dream

End me.
End me.

I puked in the bathroom
I couldn't take the pain
I scalded my hand with burning water
I didn't take it away
I let it boil
I puked in the sink
And fell on the floor
I don't know what to think
For, I know I will never be happy
and I know that for sure

Help me find solace
Not in another
But in myself,
my one fatal flaw.