Self-harm fever dream

End me.
End me.

I puked in the bathroom
I couldn't take the pain
I scalded my hand with burning water
I didn't take it away
I let it boil
I puked in the sink
And fell on the floor
I don't know what to think
For, I know I will never be happy
and I know that for sure

Help me find solace
Not in another
But in myself,
my one fatal flaw.
                

The best art comes around when you have no intention of it being seen by anyone; this is my favourite piece and it is because of that. I had had an awful night and it culminated in me having a mental breakdown in a public bathroom in a theatre, I scalded my hand with the water running down the sink to surpress my thoughts, but it wasn't enough and my emotions got so strong I puked and I then fell against the wall and slid down slowly, hyperventilating. I then wrote that, as a desperate plee for something, someone, anything to save me.